Desirous. I often get things wrong, only to realize the mistake sooner or later. I get things right, only to realize the fault. To see both sides of a tossing coin, unbiased if I should be precise, I think I need a better manifestation of myself. Why not dissever myself to conflicting natures so that I am always able to criticize what I might be appreciating from some other perspective? Will it not help me be a noetic, offshore, and open minded person? Easier said than done. No harm playing the dice though, after all I am the only player.